First Xmas in London

Some pictures to share...look at the plump me!! *shucks!* i need remedy!

Living on a bed filled with thorns.

Complainning is human's nature, i presumed. I was never satisfied and happy with what I have even though I think I should be grateful to my parents as well as the bless from God that I do not need to struggle much with my life here. However, I was not even happy with what I had! I should be ashamed of myself starting from this very day! *ish ish*

I should be glad when I m at home where my mum used to wake me up every morning, prepares breakfast, fetch me to college, pick me up from station, prepares dinner, wash my clothes, iron my clothes, well doing completely everything for me!! Treating me more than a princess at home, pampering me and adore me like a diamond! sigh! I have never touched the housework at home and cooking. NOW?? A complete different person!! Every single thing needs to be planned, decide and implement it well ALL by MYSELF. Its time to face the reality! Being independent sounds easy but it is eventually hard. Not as easy as I thought it would be.

However, living on a bed filled with thorns makes me grow up, preparing myself to another stage of life. In a way it is good, in certain it is not that good because it is hard work! After 15 weeks being in London all by myself, it is time for me to show my report card, stating my progress of a different stage of life.

CheckList of Progression

> Health............Currently I should give myself 55%
(Why? Reason - Junks too much and needs to be reduced!)

> Physical image.............A good perspective where it is only worth 45%
(Why? Reason - Gained too much weight when I shouldnt be doing it!!!)

> Emotion status........Still moderate which it should be approximately 53%
(Why? Reason - Always very moody for no reason, having weird behaviour and thoughts!
still in the process of identifying what had happened.)

> Cooking.......I should reward myself from being so CLEVER with 70%
(Why? Reason - Never know that I am actually good in it. I could do even better with more
practice. I have even earned praises in my culinary skills! *claps claps..hooray!!*)

> Cleanliness..includes room, laundry, toilet and kitchen..more than 80%
(Why? Reason - I am the most organised and particular person in my flat!! Cleans all my
stuff after using especially in kitchen, drawers are clean and in perfect order! Toilet is
washed up twice a week, vacuum once or twice a week.)

> Study...still a long way to learn..47%
(Why? Reason - Its really tough studying here!!! I AM STRUGGLING EVERYDAY)

> Homesick...gradually better with a score 65%
(Why? Reason - Still thinks of home everyday even though I am busy with work and study)

> Friends....divided into 2 categories..
~ London 58%
(Why? Reason - It is difficult to fit into groups where there is absolute no similarity, so I am
still coping with it. Some are indeed quite helpful and kind, some are not!)

~ Malaysia 70%
(Why? Reason - Jess is my backbone being here. Never fail supporting me whenever in
need, BFF. College mates are still in touch, it is normal even if its not, simply because
presence back home is essential, or perhaps, others might not be keen to even contact?)

> Work @ London 55%
(Why? Reason - Still needs improvement, Manager just complained that I am too quiet.
haha..which is very true, because I rarely open my mouth to talk, just work and being too
obedient!)

> Innocent Status 75% (HAHA)
(Why? Reason - Should be a lot higher back in Malaysia but now I am slightly over exposed
with the 'real' world..no more 'katak bawah tempurung'. Had tried drinking, sort of partying
but no clubbing, just hangout at bars or pubs..hated it tho! So it would be just first and last.)

> Decision making 50%
(Why? Reason - Still improving, hated to make decisions because the negativity in me never
dies, carpricons' behaviour perhaps?)

In other words, my average score should be only reaching 50%, hopefully another 3 months I would improve even more!